New year,new love?

Happy new year 2015,, yeaahhh...
I want to scream,i want to laugh, i want to be happy like all those people i saw having a blast NYE last nite.

But,here i am,,in bed, eating cookies,ice cream,,and trying my best NOT to cry..damn..

I dont know how many of you people out there that suffered a massive broken heart,,maybe 10? 15? 50? 100? 1000? Maybe,,who knows,,and some of you maybe have a certain ways to deal with it.

Dan gw,,didukung oleh sahabat2 tercinta gw disarankan untuk,,just wrote it down babe,,it will make you better...., and i was like....oookaayyy....
So here i am,,mencoba menuliskan dgn kata2 bagaimana perasaan gw saat ini..
Well..i feel like..i want to punch something,anything,especially a face of certain guy,namely my boyfriend,or soon to be ex boyfriend..i dont know,cause thats what happen,, gw seorang wanita sedang digantung oleh pacarnya selama 2 thn,,ketika pria itu ditanya apakah "dia bisa menikahi aku atau tidak?"

Yeps..salahkah pertanyaan itu terlontar? Hey,,im not that young anymore,ak wanita berusia diatas 30 thn yg,memiliki hub serius selama hampir 2 tahun terakhir..usia kekasihku memang lebih muda dr ak,,tepatnya 6 th lbh muda dr ku,, we got issues,,and we got bumps here and there...but we love each other..dan selama ini kupikir bila kita saling mencintai,maka semua akan baik saja..boy i was wrong!!!
Kami bertengkar,kami putus sambung meskipun tdk pernah lbh dari 1 minggu,, we are that in love,,we need each other,we care for each other..dan ketika ak bertanya kejelasan hub kami,,pertengkaran besar selalu terjadi.......hub kami tdk mendapat persetujuan orang tua kekasihku.......